The signs are everywhere

There is so much injustice in this world. There is so much slander. There are fabricated news everywhere that we do not know what is right anymore. There are gossips vis-a-vis the real thing. There is reputation at stake due to media manipulation. There is so much bad vis-a-vis the good. There are so many unanswered questions. There is too much vice. There is never an end to all of this.

We have been warned of the impending doom and the little signs that come before it. And why are we still nonchalant about it? Are we too engrossed with worldly affairs that we forget what awaits us in the hereafter? Haven't we seen and heard enough?

Signs are everywhere. Why do we still have a tough time searching for them? Are we actually looking with our eyes? Or are we in constant denial?

May God guide us in the right path..

Food stalls vs mice

I was happily eating my roti canai this morning when i suddenly saw a glimpse of a not so small creature crawling about five feet away from me. I did not flip, but it kinda got me thinking for a bit.

Naturally, eating at a stall set up next to one of the biggest drains at the housing area, we expect these creatures to be roaming the area. With or without one of the best food stalls opened nearby.

So these creatures are called mice. Do we stop eating there just because we saw one miserable looking rat behind the cashier counter?

But the food is simply good.

Oh well.. What do we expect? Choosing to eat next to the smelly drain comes with consequences.

Housemanship in malaysia - my experience and the rest of them

I was a houseofficer once. I had to do things that all houseofficers had to do. I had to run to the blood bank for blood products. I had to wait (stupidly) at the blood bank for half an hour till the blood is ready and then run back to wherever i came from. I had to wake up early in the morning to see patients. I had to skip breakfast and lunch most of the time. I had to go home hours passed my working time. I had to come home feeling so tired that i would go straight to bed. I had to hurt my family for not being there for important family dinners and events. I had to take blood from patients and prick them again and again till they got really fed up with me. I had to pacify family members who were angry at the system for causing their relative to wait for days for an operation. I had to deal with rude nurses who thought they were so experienced and that they were better and smarter than me. I had to spend a lot of money for expensive catering before i left a particular department. I had to stay up the whole night to check on an ill patient every hour or half an hour. I had to suffer from severe stomach ache due to five hours of delayed voiding as i had no time to run to the toilet. I had to do CPR at 2am while pregnant at 35weeks, alone, while waiting for my staff who were chilling in the pantry to come and realise that the patient was not breathing anymore. I had to endure painful contractions everynight i was oncall in the emergency department when i was pregnant. I had to memorise the history of patients' in three wards before i could get a day off. I had to be patient when i got scolded for other houseofficers' mistakes. 

I went throught it. We all did. What's the big fuss? Why not enjoy every bit of it instead of whining and justifying why you shouldn't have gone through what you went through just because you 'don't plan to become doctors forever'? Why not learn and experience something as much as you can; something that only a doctor understands. I enjoyed every bit of my training. I fell, i stood up again, i learned, and i became better. I had more great moments compared to all the above. Most people concentrate too much on the bad experience when there are actually more happy times to savour and remember. You cant stand the training, quit sooner than later. Coz frankly, you are just not cut out for it.

Positivity

When we do something, it has to come from the heart. It has to be sincere. It has to be full of love and happy thoughts. Coz the end result will be a mixture of how good the product is + how much of good aura it accompanies it. The more positive the energy is, the better the outcome will be.

The outcome can be anything from the dish you cook, to a speech that you give to the public. When you cook with love, it will taste much better. If there is so much hate and boredom, it will taste aweful. When you give a speech with passion, the hall will sit back and listen to every word that comes out of your mouth. And your speech will be remembered forever.

Be positive. Disseminate cheerful vibes. Infect people with continuous laughter. Do everything for love. Stop whining.

Living in a lie

If you think your spouse or boy/girl friend is annoying and disappointing, wait till you hear what i had to go through today.

No I am not going to talk about my marriage, but this is a story that I will always remember from now on. It is about how unfair a person can be to his or her own spouse. The person you took a vow with, for better or for worse. To me, whatever she did, it is worse than having a spouse who cheats with another person.

So this is a true story about a woman who made a mistake in her past and had to create one lie after the other. As a result of her mistake, she was unfortunate enough to be infected with HIV. She knew about it when she became pregnant on the same year. A year after she delivered a healthy baby girl, she met a man whom she married not long after their first date. Their first child was conceived and delivered the next year. The child has HIV positive.

Being the person she is, she refused to accept that their HIV positive child needed treatment. She insisted that their child was fit as a fiddle. She was constantly in denial.

Just recently they had another baby. It has been five years since they got married. And the husband still does not have a clue of her status and their eldest child's. The worst thing is, he has no idea that he could also be infected with it.

Until today, I finally had the chance to meet the husband. Just imagine how he reacted upon receiving the news..

May God grant you the greatest miracle ever.

Not a housewife

I know i can't be a housewife. I know i don't enjoy doing house chores on my own. I know i don't like seeing people leave the house and i am the one closing the gates and the house door. I known i hate staying home alone.

I love my life now. I have a career that i simply enjoy. I look forward for work everyday. Well, sometimes i don't (like when i am down with flu or some bug), but most of the time, i get excited expecting the challenges for the day. Come what may. I am ever ready.

A good life is not only having a family, or earning big bucks. But it is the little things that make your life less miserable. They are the convenience of having your best 'roti canai' shop next to your house (where you can drop by it on the way to the office), having your lovely adorable hubby do the chores together, having time to have breakfast just in time before work starts, and having to drive less than 10 minutes to work.

I love the little things in life. I love that i am not a housewife.