the bucket list

thinking about death is good. it makes us feel humbled by the fact that God is the only one that stays. it keeps us grounded. well, to some people. it makes us realise how short life is and death can come anywhere and anytime.

some people cry when they think about death. some people can't wait to die. some people think that they are going to live a long and prosperous life. some people think that they are going to live forever. some people know when they are going to die. some people spend much of their life feeling angry and stressed. some people are too busy working and making money. some people spend much time thinking they are smarter, stronger and more powerful than others. some people love scolding and putting people down without thinking that it is sinful to hurt others even if they are less smart than them. some people forget that their position in society is not the same as where they stand in His eyes. some people think that they can bring their money to the grave. some people forget that they will eventually die and all their wealth will stay behind.

as for me, i have always thought that my life is going to be a short one. i always have and always will.  knowing that there is another life hereafter makes me feel that this world will never be enough.  i totally don't mind it. i used to think that making millions was everything. but not anymore. as long as i can live my life to the fullest without hurting others, i will be more than happy.

hence i have come up with a revised list of what to do before i die. =)

1) learn how to ride a motorbike

2) learn a new language

3) learn how to ride a horse

4) learn how to shoot the target using a handgun

5) learn to keep quiet when speaking hurts others more

6) to be a good wife, a good mother, a good daughter, a good sister and a good friend

7) to keep loving my job till my last breath

8) to make sure that my family is financially well taken care of once i die

9) to enjoy nature more than what i used to

10) to bungee jump

11) to volunteer as much as i can

12) to be more patient with old people, annoying little children, idiots who think that they are smarter than the rest of the population

13) to forgive and be forgiven

14) to be closer to God every single day

InsyaAllah. wish me all the luck in the world. =)

doctors cry too

only doctors understand doctors.

the other day i was looking at this particular picture that went viral. it was a photo taken by a paramedic outside the emergency department and in the picture was a doctor who was crying. the story was that the doctor just lost his patient and he could not contain the sadness within him. hence he went outside to cry his lungs out so that no one could see him cry. unfortunately, the whole world saw it.

being human is easy. but being a doctor with a heart can sometimes be tough. at medical school, i was  literally taught not to cry in front of patients or their relatives. i was told that a doctor should not take away the grief of a patient's family by crying too. so they said.

but when a child dies and we are the ones who have to inform the parents of the heartbreaking news, we can't help but to shed a tear or two as well. witnessing the parents literally burst into tears while we stand there with a poker face, is not an easy task. we usually would leave them as quickly as we can to find the nearest empty room. not to go to sleep, but to cry in between the racks. once the tears have dried up, we wash our face and we get back to work as if nothing happened.

reading women's mind part 2

a woman always wishes to have the perfect husband/boyfriend.
a woman always hopes that her man is more understanding.
more helpful with the house chores.
more sensitive with her feelings.
more loving.
more successful.
more hardworking.
more and more of everything
and the list goes on and on..

when a woman wants something from her man, all she ever knows is that she has to have it.
there and then.
if it takes a while for it to happen, then she might not want it anymore.
(well, she will say she doesn't want it, but deep inside she wants it more than anything)
then if (after a while) the man tells her that he is giving her what she wants, she flips.
coz she does not want it anymore, remember?
so she says..

why does this happen?

coz women are complicated.
we want our men to want to do the dishes, not because they have to.

to come to think of it again, which man in his right man would WANT to do the dishes anyway?

apa itu bentan

Malays love to be blind followers. Most follow things blindly without thinking. They do not mind looking like fools as long as they can follow something that they think others follow as well.

Forget copy -pasting articles over the ineternet,on facebook and whatsapp. The most annoying thing that i find impossible to comprehend is the word 'bentan'. it is so illogical that there is no english translation and definitely no scientific explanation for it. But people still believe in it so religiously without even knowing what it actually means. Ask any man or woman out there.what the hell does bentan mean? And you will get a few minutes of silence. A few moments later, you will see them googling the meaning on their smart phones, trying very hard to explain something to others what they just learned from the internet. Simply annoying.

So don't be blind followers. Use our brains before uttering something that we ourselves do not understand. It makes us the true definition  of stupidity.

Remember, we get high fever because of bugs, virus or bacteria. Not because of playing in the rain..