Cerita aku..
"Aduh sakitnya perutku..". Aku merintih dalam gelap. Ingin sahaja aku kejutkan Lutfi di sebelah, tapi aku bisikkan sahaja rintihan ku. Mungkin tiada apa-apa yang merisaukan. Tangan kanan ku cuba capaikan telefon bimbit kesayanganku. 4:05 am. Baru 4:05 pagi?? Aduh, sakitnya. Memulas-mulas perutku. Setelah 2 minit merintih, aku gagahkan juga kaki ke tandas. Satu perkara yang cukup ku benci; berjalan ke tandas dalam gelap. Ish malasnya..
Rupa-rupanya hanya cirit birit. Haha. Mungkin aku sudah salah makan. Keracunan makanan mungkin? Apa-apalah.
Dua minit kemudian, rasa memulas itu datang semua. Lebih kuat dan lebih lama. "Tak boleh jadi ni..". Aku ke tandas semula. Kali ini aku tidak teragak-agak untuk berlari-lari anak.
Setelah lima minit, aku masuk ke kamar dan baring semula. Rasanya seperti lima jam di dalam tandas. Cukup-cukuplah untuk kali ini. Aku tidak sanggup kehilangan air dalam badan lagi. Habis tenaga ku nanti.
Sakit perutku makin kuat. Sakit untuk 30 saat dan kemudian hilang untuk 2-3 minit. Tapi setiap kali sakit itu datang, tidak senang duduk aku dibuatnya.
"Aduhhhh!" Tidak ku sedar, terkuat pula volume suara ku. Lutfi di sebelah terus terjaga.
"Kenapa sayang?" Tanya Lutfi dengan suara yang risau. Walaupun risau, masih kedengaran juga suara ngantuknya. Adorable. Tapi aku masih dalam kesakitan.
Sedar tak sedar, jam sudah menunjukkan pukul 5 pagi. Aku sudah menahan kesakitan yang amat dahsyat itu selama hampir satu jam. Mungkin inilah sakitnya yang akan membawa perubahan dalam hidupku selagi ku masih hidup. Mungkin inilah sakitnya yang akan membuatku menangis kegembiraan. Mungkin inilah sakitnya yang akan membuatku tersenyum seorang. Mungkin inilah sakitnya yang akan memberhentikan nafasku. Mungkin inilah sakitnya yang ku tunggu-tunggu selama ini.
"Sayang, mari ke hospital. Tak lama lagi ni....," kataku dengan suara yang hampir tak dapat didengari. Air mata ku mula membasahi pipi. Aku tidak sedih, aku tidak takut. Tapi air mata memang tidak mampu ku bendung.
Lutfi anggukkan sahaja sambil menukar pakaiannya secepat yang boleh.
"Selawat sayang. InsyaAllah semuanya akan selamat,". Bergetar suara Lutfi menenangkan aku. Aku diam sahaja. Tiada lagi ayat untuk dituturkan. Tuhan sahaja yang tahu sakitnya aku ketika ini.
Bersambung....
Sunday, 25 May 2014
Friday, 23 May 2014
Parents vs children
Parents are two people that matter a lot to most people. They tell their children to do things that they themselves don't do.
Parents are usually self conceited. They feel that they are better than other parents. They feel that no other parent can be half as good as them. They always feel the urge to advice other parents to do the right thing. They always feel compelled to tell other parents the right way to raise their children.
Parents always think that they know their children very well. Parents always believe that their child will always be the little toddler who runs around their backyard and never grows up. Even when their children grow up and become parents, parents still think that they know better. Parents will always assume that they know and understand the world better than their children do. They will always think that they know what their children are going through but they always get suprised when they realise that their children have a problem that they are not aware of.
What parents don't know is that every single child of theirs has his or her own problem. And children don't necessarily share everything with their parents. No matter how close they are.
However strong a daughter or a son is, whenever a parent says or does something hurtful, the child will always remember that moment.
Children try hard not to be like their parents but most of the time they become exactly like them. Unless they really really really hate their parents.
Parents believe that they are better than their children. Children will always try to prove that they can be better.
And the cycle never stops.
Parents are usually self conceited. They feel that they are better than other parents. They feel that no other parent can be half as good as them. They always feel the urge to advice other parents to do the right thing. They always feel compelled to tell other parents the right way to raise their children.
Parents always think that they know their children very well. Parents always believe that their child will always be the little toddler who runs around their backyard and never grows up. Even when their children grow up and become parents, parents still think that they know better. Parents will always assume that they know and understand the world better than their children do. They will always think that they know what their children are going through but they always get suprised when they realise that their children have a problem that they are not aware of.
What parents don't know is that every single child of theirs has his or her own problem. And children don't necessarily share everything with their parents. No matter how close they are.
However strong a daughter or a son is, whenever a parent says or does something hurtful, the child will always remember that moment.
Children try hard not to be like their parents but most of the time they become exactly like them. Unless they really really really hate their parents.
Parents believe that they are better than their children. Children will always try to prove that they can be better.
And the cycle never stops.
pet vs child
If you have a cat, you will be very happy if the cat you look after very well comes running to you when it sees you come back home. (We all know how difficult it is for a cat to be loyal. So when it happens, you will feel like the luckiest person on earth)
If you have a dog, nothing beats the loyalty that it gives you. However far it goes, it surely comes back running to you. The feeling is unbeatable to own a company like one.
When your favourite pet makes you happy, imagine if you have a child of your own. Imagine how amazing it feels to see your baby grow and get smarter everyday. I never understood it till i had one of my own.
I thank God for such blessing that not everyone understands.
Wednesday, 21 May 2014
Trying to look clever vs actually clever
Half a knowledge is not just dangerous. It can be catastrophic.
I have seen people who know very little but act like they know so much.
It gets worse when they make other people believe them.
The number of fools then increase exponentially.
Tragic.
When all they do is argue and question findings that are evidence-based (but are too lazy to read the literature), they will eventually expose their ignorance to others.
Remember, empty cans make the most noise.
I have seen people who know very little but act like they know so much.
It gets worse when they make other people believe them.
The number of fools then increase exponentially.
Tragic.
When all they do is argue and question findings that are evidence-based (but are too lazy to read the literature), they will eventually expose their ignorance to others.
Remember, empty cans make the most noise.
Think before you act
The brain is like a powerful machine. If it is used, it can produce wonders. But if it is not used, it collects dust, gets rusty and might stop functioning altogether till it gets serviced some day (it could be years before one realises the need for servicing).
Don't let the brain become of no use when it can solve a simple equation (that turned hiroshima into dust) or make a man the wealthiest person in the universe.
It all comes from using the brain. Don't waste something that comes for free.
Don't let the brain become of no use when it can solve a simple equation (that turned hiroshima into dust) or make a man the wealthiest person in the universe.
It all comes from using the brain. Don't waste something that comes for free.
Parents' pride
Parents get easily proud of their children. Their pride sometimes encompasses the notion that they have the best, the smartest, the cutest and even the most talented children in the world.
Most of the time it is not true to most people.
But who cares. Being proud parents is an ecstasy that not every Tom, Dick and Harry can understand.
Women vs men
When a man says to leave him alone, it literally means 'leave him alone'.
When a woman says leave her alone (to the man she loves), it means that 'if you are man enough to come and pacify me, i'll love you even more..'
Tricky. But it is not a secret.
When a woman says leave her alone (to the man she loves), it means that 'if you are man enough to come and pacify me, i'll love you even more..'
Tricky. But it is not a secret.
Monday, 19 May 2014
Scar that hurts even when it is healed
When the person that matters most to you decides to go against you and crush you, all you could do is crumble..
To rise again takes time.
Coz the scar that remains in your heart will be there to remind you time and time again that you have been hurt..
So what do you do?
You brave the odds and trudge on. You let time pass.
One day when you try to recall the past, you will realise that some clips have been erased from your memory box. You won't even remember how it all started.
That, is the power of time.
To rise again takes time.
Coz the scar that remains in your heart will be there to remind you time and time again that you have been hurt..
So what do you do?
You brave the odds and trudge on. You let time pass.
One day when you try to recall the past, you will realise that some clips have been erased from your memory box. You won't even remember how it all started.
That, is the power of time.
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