building the present from the past

i used to be that girl who just knew how to enjoy life my own way. i used to be that girl who couldn't care less what others thought of me. i used to be that girl who couldn't be arsed to know what was the latest fashion at that time. i used to be that girl that loved to wear what i wanted to wear, do what i wanted to do, love what i wanted to love and enjoy what i wanted to enjoy. i broke a few hearts along the way, hurt some souls, made some happy, and some did not quite like my presence. but i just couldn't care less. yes, i was that kind of girl. not many people noticed my existence but those who did, i am sure most of them wished they had not met me in the first place.

now i feel slightly different inside me. not because i am happy with my present or because i am plain grateful with life. but it is because i am so satisfied with my present life that i will never change a thing what i did in the past. my past has shaped the person i am today. it has moulded me into this person that i hardly know at times. sometimes reality seems surreal.

now, everything matters more to me. no more not caring what others think. i become conscious of my appearance. i become aware of my surroundings. i become more concerned with making others happy. why? maybe this is what maturity is all about. or maybe this is what becoming a mother is all about. don't do unto others what i might not want others to do unto my children.. =)

reading women's mind

women are very simple people actually. not as complicated as what men usually think. but the problem is, it becomes complicated because when a woman wants something, she just wants that particular thing. and unfortunately she rarely says it out loud. if the man can't read her mind (which is usually the case), then that is when it becomes complicated.

a man can call his woman everyday from north pole for all she cares, but if she doesn't hear him say the words that she wants to hear, she won't appreciate much what he does. if a woman wants to hear her man say 'i love you' but he doesn't, and instead he gives her all the attention in the world, fill up her room with red roses and expensive chocolates, those things will still mean nothing till she hears the words she wants to hear.

and some women are just as strong and as simple as a man can be. if you don't say what she wants you to say, she won't say it first. if you don't do what she wants you to do, she won't do it first. if i want you to hug instead of kiss me and i do not get either, i don't care if you vomit blood before me. if compassion is all what women want and they don't get it, their hearts might turn to stone in no time. revengeful. but it is that simple.

well, it is indeed THAT simple with women. try read their mind. and.you.shall.always.fail. ;-)